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Just a little rant because I haven't in awhile and it's good to write things down.
Job search is not going terribly well but is actually not doing as terrible as it could be. I've put my resume up in various places and am hopeful that even if I can't immediately get into my field (doubtful with my experience) both I and my friend will at least have better luck with retail type jobs when school starts as we can do hours they can't. Why I hope both of us well as we are determined to one day move in together. Actually if I had to choose one of us to get a job first I'd choose her - I'd love a job right now but being in her home is killing her emotionally.
I started roleplaying back in Pern 'verse again though I'm trying to be cautious despite my rp muse jumping at it. I even started a game as well as rping in one but made it easy on myself - open to all levels so when I get the urge to nitpick... I don't. I'm also not co-owning with the person I was before because we have the tendency to set each other off when it comes to things that bother us. Something that bothered us just a little will suddenly becoming something terrible and insulting! So yeah. She has a strong personality and is more... emotionally turbulent than I am. I love writing with her but I'm too likely to fold because I do love writing with her and don't want to upset her when it comes to owning an rp with her. And then every disagreement we have becomes high stress too.
To the universe, I would like to ask why the greatest ideas I have come to me when I'm ready to go to bed at an almost-proper time and instead end up pacing around my room and clicking away at the keyboard because I know the idea won't be there in the morning. This ranges from story ideas, roleplay ideas, to ideas about rl things, to just about anything! Always when I'm about to get in bed. Or in the shower, though that as well is usually half-asleep as I take showers at night.
And lastly, I never should have played that trial of WoW when I had no money. D: Do want to play more now plz.
Job search is not going terribly well but is actually not doing as terrible as it could be. I've put my resume up in various places and am hopeful that even if I can't immediately get into my field (doubtful with my experience) both I and my friend will at least have better luck with retail type jobs when school starts as we can do hours they can't. Why I hope both of us well as we are determined to one day move in together. Actually if I had to choose one of us to get a job first I'd choose her - I'd love a job right now but being in her home is killing her emotionally.
I started roleplaying back in Pern 'verse again though I'm trying to be cautious despite my rp muse jumping at it. I even started a game as well as rping in one but made it easy on myself - open to all levels so when I get the urge to nitpick... I don't. I'm also not co-owning with the person I was before because we have the tendency to set each other off when it comes to things that bother us. Something that bothered us just a little will suddenly becoming something terrible and insulting! So yeah. She has a strong personality and is more... emotionally turbulent than I am. I love writing with her but I'm too likely to fold because I do love writing with her and don't want to upset her when it comes to owning an rp with her. And then every disagreement we have becomes high stress too.
To the universe, I would like to ask why the greatest ideas I have come to me when I'm ready to go to bed at an almost-proper time and instead end up pacing around my room and clicking away at the keyboard because I know the idea won't be there in the morning. This ranges from story ideas, roleplay ideas, to ideas about rl things, to just about anything! Always when I'm about to get in bed. Or in the shower, though that as well is usually half-asleep as I take showers at night.
And lastly, I never should have played that trial of WoW when I had no money. D: Do want to play more now plz.
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Ugh. Half-way through the last semester of college and I swear if I make it through without killing someone I might believe my friends when they call me the saint. That comment is usually in reference to one particular person, but... Yesterday was terrible in that there were only a handful of people I could stand being around and the rest of them apparently don't get what headphones in, knees up, and laptop on my lap means.
As much as I love my social life right now, I kinda realized the past couple of days I need to stop going places for hours at a time off-campus. It's why I'm scrambling a bit more than usual since I feel like I really have no time even though I do, I'm just not using it properly. I need some time where I'm doing nothing (like right now. Well. Not nothing - but standing still) and can just relax.
Actually that lets me write too, which also improves my mood - I'd really like to finish Balance (Merlin fic, 25,000 + words right now) sometime soon. I have waaaay too many stories started. Lots of fanfic - not quite as much original fic but that's because stories don't (usually) segue off of other stories for the original fiction. I think my problem with original fiction is the bad guys. I need to get in their heads more and then maybe those stories would take off a bit better.
I also really hope I can get a job pretty much right out of college. Even if its not immediately in my field - anything to start saving up money so we can get that apartment. It gets my friend out of her bad situation with her Mom, gets me out of the house and pretty much gets us all a bit more balanced. I think it's interesting that Senior year of college is opposite of senior year of high school in terms of effort (at least for me).
General babbling over.
As much as I love my social life right now, I kinda realized the past couple of days I need to stop going places for hours at a time off-campus. It's why I'm scrambling a bit more than usual since I feel like I really have no time even though I do, I'm just not using it properly. I need some time where I'm doing nothing (like right now. Well. Not nothing - but standing still) and can just relax.
Actually that lets me write too, which also improves my mood - I'd really like to finish Balance (Merlin fic, 25,000 + words right now) sometime soon. I have waaaay too many stories started. Lots of fanfic - not quite as much original fic but that's because stories don't (usually) segue off of other stories for the original fiction. I think my problem with original fiction is the bad guys. I need to get in their heads more and then maybe those stories would take off a bit better.
I also really hope I can get a job pretty much right out of college. Even if its not immediately in my field - anything to start saving up money so we can get that apartment. It gets my friend out of her bad situation with her Mom, gets me out of the house and pretty much gets us all a bit more balanced. I think it's interesting that Senior year of college is opposite of senior year of high school in terms of effort (at least for me).
General babbling over.
Technically it's a week into the new year but I don't care. It hasn't been a terribly exciting week, though I did spend most of it up near my university. There for a New Year's party, we(me and one of my best friends who was kind enough to drive me) stayed a few days for various reasons. I didn't bring my computer which was just about the only downside since it's nice there with only certain people up there and certain other people not.
2009 was an interesting year. I hope with a lot of things cleared out from my life (the old rpgs that were causing me problems, a certain real life person) this will be a good year. Graduation is in May which I am trying to think of as little as possible. I have never really panicked over school before this last semester. I hope this next one will actually be better but... Senior project.
Role-playing both online and off is nice. I only have a bit online which is actually nice. There are two D&D games I'm in at college and one sporadic Serenity game so I'm having fun being a big ol' geek. As well as Secretary of JCAC - otherwise known as anime club.
As always when I have a moment to breathe, my fingers are itching to write. Merlin fanfiction is still the major one though other fandoms and original fic do their best to spin in their - there's a big, spanning original story in my mind that just keeps forming more and more where the "heroes" end up causing the bad guy into existing. <3 On accident, of course.
2009 was an interesting year. I hope with a lot of things cleared out from my life (the old rpgs that were causing me problems, a certain real life person) this will be a good year. Graduation is in May which I am trying to think of as little as possible. I have never really panicked over school before this last semester. I hope this next one will actually be better but... Senior project.
Role-playing both online and off is nice. I only have a bit online which is actually nice. There are two D&D games I'm in at college and one sporadic Serenity game so I'm having fun being a big ol' geek. As well as Secretary of JCAC - otherwise known as anime club.
As always when I have a moment to breathe, my fingers are itching to write. Merlin fanfiction is still the major one though other fandoms and original fic do their best to spin in their - there's a big, spanning original story in my mind that just keeps forming more and more where the "heroes" end up causing the bad guy into existing. <3 On accident, of course.
Trying to figure out what to leave behind for college will be fun. The fridge from my roommate is small, but is still a large square thing and we had trouble getting home last time. And while I usually manage to take more with me over the course of the year, I also tried to vary up my food purchases a tad bit so... less stuff, more food + fridge... though, being an empty fridge I can use it as a box at least.
Funnily, I find when I've had less than five hours of sleep I am more likely to actually organize things in my room. Possibly because I'm extra irritable and need to do something but the headache from lack of sleep doesn't let me do much that requires focus. Like playing a video game could work, until the first time I die and would then destroy the world in a a sulky fit. Other problem with lack of sleep if it's too bad - the voice in my head that says "Noooo, walk away" is not as good. I actually noted this a couple days back when I'd had too little sleep.
I am also really, really glad that I am not running those rps anymore. I almost decided to try running another because I missed it. A whole different set up, a very casual plot compared to usual, mostly people-run... and then I realized that no matter how player-run I tried to make it it wouldn't work out, and I missed it in some ways yes, but in other ways, no. I don't miss it enough to give me less time writing. Plus in a week and a few days it will be one less excuse for why to put homework off and I'm really planning on trying to not only not do my homework at the last minute, but do it early. Shocking concept, I know.
Frankly, this also gives me more time to write. Fanfiction writing mostly, but it's writing and I like it and most of my original fiction has dragons in it and I I could do with less of that. Except the one that doesn't which also happens to be the one I only have a few pieces on but already want to rework the first piece. Or possibly just writing some with the vampire and one of the main characters because they get along like fire and water and it amuses me.
I also have way too many Merlin pieces started and most of those are long, chaptered pieces. This is a terrible, terrible thing because when this happens it means I am hooked! I am going to be sad going back to college because I know there is someone who would have found Merlin amusing and now is graduated! That won't hit me as much until I am there and realize that certain people will never come to the tables again! I refuse to think about that too much though, because if I do I'll start panicking over Senior Project being in spring semester and I still have no ideas for it yet! I swear I've been trying to think of one since sophomore year!
Funnily, I find when I've had less than five hours of sleep I am more likely to actually organize things in my room. Possibly because I'm extra irritable and need to do something but the headache from lack of sleep doesn't let me do much that requires focus. Like playing a video game could work, until the first time I die and would then destroy the world in a a sulky fit. Other problem with lack of sleep if it's too bad - the voice in my head that says "Noooo, walk away" is not as good. I actually noted this a couple days back when I'd had too little sleep.
I am also really, really glad that I am not running those rps anymore. I almost decided to try running another because I missed it. A whole different set up, a very casual plot compared to usual, mostly people-run... and then I realized that no matter how player-run I tried to make it it wouldn't work out, and I missed it in some ways yes, but in other ways, no. I don't miss it enough to give me less time writing. Plus in a week and a few days it will be one less excuse for why to put homework off and I'm really planning on trying to not only not do my homework at the last minute, but do it early. Shocking concept, I know.
Frankly, this also gives me more time to write. Fanfiction writing mostly, but it's writing and I like it and most of my original fiction has dragons in it and I I could do with less of that. Except the one that doesn't which also happens to be the one I only have a few pieces on but already want to rework the first piece. Or possibly just writing some with the vampire and one of the main characters because they get along like fire and water and it amuses me.
I also have way too many Merlin pieces started and most of those are long, chaptered pieces. This is a terrible, terrible thing because when this happens it means I am hooked! I am going to be sad going back to college because I know there is someone who would have found Merlin amusing and now is graduated! That won't hit me as much until I am there and realize that certain people will never come to the tables again! I refuse to think about that too much though, because if I do I'll start panicking over Senior Project being in spring semester and I still have no ideas for it yet! I swear I've been trying to think of one since sophomore year!
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It's interesting searching for writing and seeing what comes up, but what was most interesting was a challenge I saw "write a page a day" and... is that hard? Just a page? I mean, I didn't look more into it, but if it's just that, a page of anything - that's an interesting challenge because on the one hand, it's so easy but on the other, when people are trying to find some time, any time to write in a day, I can see where it would be useful. Just a page a day minimum gives people a step forward no matter what.
I have no problems writing many pages a day. I have problems writing those many pages all on one thing from beginning to end though. Even last semester when I was actually getting out and socializing all the time (omg, what, I have friend, when did that happen - those were my thoughts) before I tried to force myself to be rping in places I no longer enjoyed and absolutely killed my muse - seriously, I quit the rps and suddenly I had a million idea crashing into my mind (though I shouldn't blame just them - there were friend(ish) and boy issues too) - I was still writing a lot. The quantity has never been a problem.
The quality? That's something I wonder about and is what has me looking up writing communities and watching how the authors (online and off) write. It bugs me to have to do it but if I've read the story before I forgo enjoying it for once and look how its put together. Sometimes it works well - and sometimes it makes me look back at something I've written and despair. I have real pacing issues, I've noticed. I go too slow for me, but too fast for readers (or so I believe) or vice versa. At the same time I don't want to put in fluff. And when does the word "said" get said too much? Also, thesaurus.com is a bit of a live saver when I know a word isn't really what I mean but is close.
This was brought to you for the reason: Needed to put it down so I did. It helps to write things out.
I have no problems writing many pages a day. I have problems writing those many pages all on one thing from beginning to end though. Even last semester when I was actually getting out and socializing all the time (omg, what, I have friend, when did that happen - those were my thoughts) before I tried to force myself to be rping in places I no longer enjoyed and absolutely killed my muse - seriously, I quit the rps and suddenly I had a million idea crashing into my mind (though I shouldn't blame just them - there were friend(ish) and boy issues too) - I was still writing a lot. The quantity has never been a problem.
The quality? That's something I wonder about and is what has me looking up writing communities and watching how the authors (online and off) write. It bugs me to have to do it but if I've read the story before I forgo enjoying it for once and look how its put together. Sometimes it works well - and sometimes it makes me look back at something I've written and despair. I have real pacing issues, I've noticed. I go too slow for me, but too fast for readers (or so I believe) or vice versa. At the same time I don't want to put in fluff. And when does the word "said" get said too much? Also, thesaurus.com is a bit of a live saver when I know a word isn't really what I mean but is close.
This was brought to you for the reason: Needed to put it down so I did. It helps to write things out.
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Title: The Eighth Night
Rating: R to be safe
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Warnings/Spoilers: All of Season one, takes place shortly after 1x13.
Summary: Arthur was really sick of the dragon waking him up with his foolish screeching.
Notes: First fic in a loooong while and first Merlin fic ever. Also, I can't do smut well so there is none. My apologies in advance.
( For the eighth night in a row, Arthur was awoken by screaming )
Rating: R to be safe
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Warnings/Spoilers: All of Season one, takes place shortly after 1x13.
Summary: Arthur was really sick of the dragon waking him up with his foolish screeching.
Notes: First fic in a loooong while and first Merlin fic ever. Also, I can't do smut well so there is none. My apologies in advance.
( For the eighth night in a row, Arthur was awoken by screaming )
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I fully blame nu!Star Trek Fandom for my new shiny fandom. Mainly, Merlin (BBC). I blame them thus because while I had heard of Merlin before and do indeed like watching the shiny not-so-accurate renditions of the Arthurian legends (Hallo Merlin - the movie - and Mists of Avalon) I had not been inclined to go out of my way and watch it yet. And then nu!Trek people on the kink meme kept referencing Merlin, and I peaked around fandom a bit and went "Hey, thirteen episodes, sure. Pass the time."
And now about a week later I have gone through most of the rec lists and have spent my time absorbed in reading Merlin fics, discussions, humorous summaries, and looking at the macro stories.
And now I am writing fics for it! Umbrage! Disgrace! Though some of them might actually be short (as in, say, under 20,000 words when finished) instead of my habit of having long multi chaptered questing, overarching plot stories. Er, though I have one of those too. Only six thousand words in or so though. (which in the grand scheme of it is probably not a lot considering what I've gone through in the story so far.) Which is fun but really. I did not need a new fandom. nu!Trek was bad enough when I just wanted to read and could control my writing impulse.
In conclusion, Star Trek is to blame. For the world ending. And stuff.
And now about a week later I have gone through most of the rec lists and have spent my time absorbed in reading Merlin fics, discussions, humorous summaries, and looking at the macro stories.
And now I am writing fics for it! Umbrage! Disgrace! Though some of them might actually be short (as in, say, under 20,000 words when finished) instead of my habit of having long multi chaptered questing, overarching plot stories. Er, though I have one of those too. Only six thousand words in or so though. (which in the grand scheme of it is probably not a lot considering what I've gone through in the story so far.) Which is fun but really. I did not need a new fandom. nu!Trek was bad enough when I just wanted to read and could control my writing impulse.
In conclusion, Star Trek is to blame. For the world ending. And stuff.
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